metamorphis

love people

love company

or maybe it should read "loved"

it's kind of strange

or at least a revelation

I considered myself "social"

now am not so sure

unsure

hesitant

and it's not about acceptance

maybe I expect too much

somehow making plans

the anticipation

brings with it a dark side

something lurking from the back of my mind

making me think

what if it's not fun

what if it's boring

what if I'm still lonely in a crowd

worse still what if I don't feel like it

and still have to go along

go through the motions

maybe it's the planning

maybe that just kills it

am still blown away by the magic of conversation

maybe I just crave spontaneity 

something impromptu

at the spur of the moment

hard in these busy times

where everyone is booked ahead for months

and it takes 20 sms's to plan ahead

so guess what am trying to say

is no wonder my favorite free time is exactly that

Free Time - nothing planned

Perfection!

drawing a line_________

at what point do you draw the line

change track completely

cut off all ties

start afresh

take a risk

change everything

venture into the unknown

so much written about

but at what point do you actually

Believe

Take the plunge

Make a change

I see meticulously planned people

and wonder at them

in awe

in amazement

in incomprehension

perhaps I was like them once

grand plans

big dreams

that's not me

well at least not been me for a while

I just jump in the deep end and hope for the best

leave it to fate

late realization

that I leave far too much to chance

But really,

At what point do you draw the line?

Don't Care

She didn't care what others thought

For they were their thoughts

She had enough of her own to care about

To postulate

To ponder

Yeah you could throw words at her

Like knives

Stick them in

Cos behind the tough exterior

She was a shell of nothingness

For if we don't feel

What are we?

Kindness

Random acts of kindness

Is there such a thing

Are they random

Or is there an expectation within

Does that make it unkind

Expectation

Should we expect

Is that being selfish

If we all acted in self interest

Where would the pleasure in pleasing others go?