Selfish

Replaying conversations in your head is never a great idea, for one, you're making both sides of the argument and anticipating the responses so the outcome is in your control, unlike reality, where however intuitive you might be, and how well you think you know a person, you can never predict what they will say or what they are thinking, there may be exceptions, by way of a sibling or spouse/partner but in general the conversation you played out in your head is never the one that plays out in reality...

...so I sit here thinking, what if, what if the outcome was different, where your responses were different, you were different and the situation itself were different, and that just makes me think, well if all if that was different perhaps I was looking for or seeing someone else instead... Looking for the person from the beginning, you know the one who puts on their A game and wants to be accepted, liked, not the later one who emerges with their moody side or their selfish side, so an appeal to the moody selfish folks, be like that from the start, don't pretend to be someone you're not.