Au revoir...

... the French say it so much better... till we meet again!

Maybe that's just how it is for us nomadic people who have no roots or don't let ourselves grow any roots...

So people come and then they leave but sometimes they connect in a way that you always hope there will be fun times again

I've lived in four different countries across continents and the only consistent thing is the friends I've made and who've stuck around and stay in touch, it might be something really simple like liking every fb post I make or with the world becoming smaller a whatsapp message exchange but makes such a difference and stops us from feeling alone

Alone now there's a word, it can mean different things to different folks... and sometimes it's actually good to be alone and truly try and find yourself

Then again it's the connections that make you feel alive and appreciate your existence and be thankful for the people who've touched your life

Not everyone stays or has lasting power but I truly believe that all these connections help define you and help you grow, maybe someone teaches you resilience and others might teach you to look for positivity in the little things and appreciate all that you do have rather than always looking for something else.. then again others help you be nostalgic for who you once were and help you recreate that magic when you do meet again, while others still help you strive for something more...

Lots of thoughts...

Anyway this post is dedicated to my friend Anu who is embarking on a new adventure, we've only been friends for a short while but I know I'm going to miss her heaps... our shared love for prosecco, champagne, vino and brunches, the long conversations and the shared silences...

Wish her all the happiness wherever she maybe, and know that somewhere on the other side of this small planet which is truly small in the grand scheme of things we'll be thinking of her!

So au revoir my friend... Till we meet again!

Care-less

I might not care what you think

Cos those are your thoughts

Just as valid to you as mine to me

But if you put those thoughts into words

And throw them at me

It's as good as throwing knives

I hurt I feel and I will ponder over them

For a little while at least

And then I'll move on

For we're all resilient

Sometimes I'll play them back

Will think of the context

Will put myself in your shoes

So yes momentarily I'll Care

But mostly

I do as I please

Need to fill my own shoes

Have enough to say to myself

Don't need your words

Need to be true to my own

So yes, when I say I don't care what people think

That's true

100%

I only answer to myself

The demons inside me

You can hurt me with your words

But I'll just grow more resilient 

Soul-less

There's no poetry in your soul they said

You're no poet they said

For you have no knowledge of poetry

Like you have no soul

No judgment 

No understanding

Of another plane

You live in a bubble

A one-dimensional plane

So we render you soulless

Of no heart or mind

Do souls meet I asked

Does a soul have dimensions

Is it me who lacks poetry

Or are your words lacking depth

They're just words

Senseless sounds I say

Do words define us

Or do we define words

If we don't breathe into them

They'd be mere animal sounds

Demons

Only you have the power

To silence the voices in your head

Slay your demons

Make sure they're dead

That they don't creep up 

In the middle of the night

And cause you pain

Those 4am voices

You got to keep them right

Matlabi

Hum sabhi na matlabi hain

Tum kaho na

Kya sahi hai

Hum sabhi na matlabi hain

Tum kaho na

Kya sahi hai Kya sahi hai kya sahi hai haaaaa

Nakli chehre jhoothe vaade

Sach ki koi chah Nahi hai

Tum kaho na kya sahi hai

Sab banawat sab milawat

Jhoothe rishte nakli chahat

Kuchh dilon mein hi kami hai

Kyun chhipayen kyun banaye

Dil mein kya hai na dikhayen

Tum kaho na kya sahi hai

Hum sabhi na matlabi hain

Tum kaho na

Kya sahi hai

Hum sabhi na matlabi hain

Tum kaho na

Kya sahi hai Kya sahi hai kya sahi hai haaaaa

Ode to one true love...

"One true love you kill me
Bollywood dreams you fill me
where are the heroes, the real men
Who stick by you even when
You're at your lowest low
& your darkest hour takes a bow
Only to find in reality that
Forever has an expiry date"

Mummness

You make me smile

With the funny things you say

New things I learn from you everyday...

or sometimes its just learning old things in a new way :)

Your hugs recharge

My tired bones

& even if I try & define

the love I feel for only mine

I cannot bear to have to share

You with anyone else

My strength you are

My weakness too

All happy things I wish for you

But above all I wish you strength

& courage to face the world

Awesomeness is what I wish to pass

The ability to bounce back

Stand up and face the rain

wrote this a while back for Ayushi

back after a hiatus

been a long break since I last posted... Perhaps I just ran out of things to say, or more likely ran out of things I wanted to share... but am back, and will write which I mostly do for myself, but sometimes it's good to share!